Training with a Marine.

Dearest Reader,

     Yesterday, I did my first upperbody workout with my friend Kyla, who also just so happens to be a Marine. Now, just because she's a good friend of mine doesn't make her that much nicer to me while we work out. That girl was on my shit list for a while. We started off with pullups. Now mind you, I can't even do ONE push up, so what made her think I could do one PULL UP?! Then she tried to get me to do one regular push up. Can't do it. So we tried putting the pull up contraption that sits in the door on the floor and I attempted to do push ups. All I could do were these weird elbow crunches and bow my back awkwardly and painfully. I did that about 30 times. We started off just by doing 10 but then she kept adding two more everytime I stopped or went to my knees.
     We did a bunch of other workouts that really helped...I think. I mean, I'm still really sore and every muscle burns. But at least I know it's working. I'll be really proud of myself when I can FINALLY do a push up. It sounds silly, but, I know I'll be really proud of myself because it's so dificult to do right now. And thats not even to mention when I finish bootcamp. When I graduate and look back on all that I've accomplished, I'll be so happy and relieved that it's all over. Although, the closer March gets, the more nervous I'm becoming. It's really hard to picture that March 8th will be here and I'll be leaving to start my 20 year journey. I'll miss a bunch of people and probably never see most of them ever again...I hope to hold onto a few for a while.. But the reality of holding on to more than 3 friends from my past is very slim. I'm really only counting on a few, and I hope I can at least achieve that.
    
     My past week has been filled with emotion. Long story short? I've learned the other side of a very trying love story, all in all, I was the bad guy Hahaha :) There's always 3 sides to every story. His, Hers, and the Truth. So remember that whenever you and your significant other get into a fight or tiff. Because the power of conversation, understanding, and listening can do a great deal. That being said, I wish I had listened to my own advice a few months ago. I hope I didn't make a mistake with my past choices, but then again, there's nothing I can do about it now except to just keep going and move on. But I'll never stop wondering "What if?" Matters of the heart are a difficult thing to understand, but no matter what problem you may face, Love is always the answer.
     "I love you and I'm sorry for everything."
     As long as you're genuine, that sentence can fix alot of problems ;) But only say it if you mean it. Because it could CAUSE more problems and frustrate the other party...I'm ranting and this is enough for now.

Yours truly,
     Alexa